#blogtour Teardown by William Campbell Powell

 

On the road to music fame,

desire and dreams collide.

Teardown

by William Campbell Powell

Genre: LGBTQ+ Contemporary Fiction

Growing up in a dead-end, Thames Valley town like Marden
Combe, Kai knows there’s no escape without a lot of talent, hard work—and luck.

Two weeks before the Clayton Paul Blues Band plans to set out on tour to
Germany, their singer quits, and drummer Kai takes matters in hand. With
bandmates Jake and Jamie, they recruit a talented new singer—the enigmatic
Dominique—as the new face of the band and set out on the road to Berlin in a
rickety white van.

Dogged by mishaps and under-rehearsed, the band stumbles through their first
shows, zig-zagging between chaos and brilliance. But as the first gig in Berlin
draws near, the band begins to gel. They’re clicking with their audience, and
even the stone-hearted Kai starts to crumble under the spell, first of Dom and
then
of Lars.

As the end of the tour approaches, Kai must make hard choices. Dom? But she’s
keeping a dark secret. Lars? Not after the acrimony of their last parting. The
band? Or will that dream crumble too?

 

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Chapter
One

Sunday, September 18, 2016

The Band Hut, Marden Combe


The bus stank of commuters. It wasn’t like a night bus, granted, but
the mix of sweat and cheap scent—and the pungency of diesel—was another
reminder of how much I hated Marden Combe.

A Thames Valley town like every other Thames Valley town, Marden Combe
had a posh, blingy bit, where the bankers, footballers, and celebrity chefs
lived. The rest ran the spectrum from dilapidated through demolished to barely
affordable modern rabbit hutches. The old town centre was closing down, and the
new shopping centre was gridlock hell.

The bus lurched and swung left, past a school named for a long-dead
parliamentarian. Or possibly a royalist. I ought to know; it had been my old
school till I’d turned sixteen. But it had all seemed irrelevant to the more
immediate problem of not getting picked on for being different. There were a
dozen ways and more to be different, whether it was for being too ugly, too
geeky, too slow on the uptake, too shy, too dark, not dark enough, having a
funny accent, or a fundy religion, or being neurodivergent, being too posh,
being too poor, liking the wrong music, or football team, or playing oddball
sports, or using last year’s tech; not liking girls, not liking boys, not
liking either, liking both. Plus others, plus combinations. By more than one
marker, I was weird, and I hadn’t always kept my head down. But there’d
definitely been no bullying at Sir Long-Dead-Parliamentarian School. Or
Royalist, as the case may be. Oh no.

That didn’t come close to summing up the suffocating, hope-crushing,
soul-sucking, shit-brown hole that is Marden Combe. I needed to escape.

If I had a plan, it was that music would save me, as currently embodied
by two pairs of drumsticks in my backpack and the cymbals in their hardcase.
I’d found a few other muzos with a similar plan, and I was heading for the
weekly escape committee meeting.

*

The bus crawled through the town centre—the closing-down bit, where the
last of the character pubs struggled to keep their doors open with, as always,
the pressure on the landlords to boost profits, cut costs, and serve
salmonella-free food, or be booted out with a mountain of debt.

I gave it a nostalgic glance as the bus passed the Lord Nelson, boarded
up and awaiting planning permission for conversion to flats. Once, the very
bricks had rung with rock and oozed the blues. Once. Now, it was just another
live music venue, dead and gone forever.

Still clinging on: the Cherry Tree, where we played a one-in-four
Saturday night residency, alternating with rivals the Dave Green Blues Band,
the twice ill-named Silent But Deadly, and a guest out-of-town band for the
final Saturday. That residency was our lifeline, our oxygen, dependent on our
ability to bring in the punters and dependent on the other bands too. Rivals we
might be, but every band had to pull its weight.

Last night’s gig had been borderline, thanks to the competition from
freshers’ week at the uni. Jeff and Simon had shown the strain as they’d sat us
down after the gig to pay us. A dear old couple, they did what they loved for
bugger-all profit. Simon, a long-term AIDS survivor, was a respected leader in
Marden Combe’s tiny LGBTQIA community. They were never less than friendly to us
as a band or to me personally, but yesterday, Simon got as near to reading the
riot act as made no difference. Times were tough, and if our audience numbers
didn’t pick up


We got the message.

The lights changed. The bus lurched into motion, taking us up the hill,
towards Marden Combe’s main industrial estate.

*

The bus passed an abandoned car on the grass verge. Last week, a sign
on the windscreen said Police Aware, but evidently, not so aware that someone
couldn’t set fire to it in the interim. That was my cue to get off. I rang the
bell, and the bus pulled to a halt about fifty yards short of a block of
single-storey industrial units. It had been built in the 1960s, and the
brickwork left much to be desired. Ditto the ironwork and the paintwork. Don’t
even think about asbestos. The third unit along was the one I was looking for.
The sign read The Band Hut, and it fit right in with Marden Combe


I pushed open the door, and all was gloom within. Thick cardboard and
felt covered the windows. I called “Hi” to Wally at the front desk, hunched
over his phone, and the autopilot grunted back. I moved past room 1 (a
folk-metal trio), room 2 (empty), and into room 3, signed with gloss white
paint roughly slapped over its matt black outer door.

Usually, with great rock stars taking interviews in their home studios,
there wasn’t an amp in sight unless it was some boutique marque they’d been
paid to endorse. The studio would be airy, bright, and wood-panelled in glossy
pine, with walls featuring three or four iconic guitars. Double-insulated patio
doors would lead onto a beautifully manicured lawn, the whole set tastefully in
the Cotswolds.

In Marden Combe, they did things differently. Black felt covered the
walls and ceiling of Studio 3. Underfoot, recycled carpet tiles clung to my
shoes, sticky as only years of spilt beer could accomplish. Worn and curling
patches showed where the bass drum spikes had caught between two tiles and
where the studio’s cobbled-together frankenamps had been dragged too many
times. Gaffa tape glinted under fluorescent lights, hasty repairs
criss-crossing the floor. Other marks—cigarette burns mostly—clustered round
the amps; the still-potent reeks of ancient tobacco and stale weed lurked at
the edge of awareness. A tired but eclectic collection of posters hung on the
walls, providing a potted archaeology of Marden Combe’s indigenous music of the
last half decade.

Jake was already set up and sitting on a Band Hut amplifier, cradling
his beloved Fender Stratocaster. He didn’t look up, but I didn’t expect him to.
He hunched over the fretboard, fingers spider-dancing their scales. Half in
shadow, he was a little spiderlike himself, all spindly limbs that gangled and
writhed. His hair, too pale for a spider, was cut short and neatly combed.

After a minute, he finished his phrase, and we nodded to each other.
Jake wasn’t a great conversationalist, so I didn’t push him out of his comfort
zone. It was called ‘letting the music do the talking’. It suited both of us.

It took me about ten minutes to get the studio’s drum kit set up the
way I like it, with my own cymbals in place. All the while, Jake happily
noodled on his Strat. Clay breezed in just as I was finishing up.

Clay was the kind of guy you’d want fronting a blues band. Beautiful,
with ebon-black skin and close-cropped hair, he had a solid baritone voice with
a growl that went up to eleven. Today, he wore jeans and a T-shirt from a Kyla
Brox show, but on stage, he was sharp-cut suit and moves. Twenty-six
years old and—speaking entirely in my capacity as detached observer—hot and
classy as fuck.

“Hi, Clay,” I called.

“Hi, Kai. Where’s Jamie?”

“He said he’d be a few minutes late. The boss is making him do
overtime.”

Which, given that it was Sunday, was brother Jamie’s standard polite
fiction for his housemates roping him into cleaning the kitchen. A little
unfair, given that Jamie is possibly the tidiest human being on the planet. If
Clay had been thinking, he’d have remembered that.

“That’s a bugger,” said Clay.

“Yeah. Tell me about it.”

But then he just stood there. Like a kid busting for a pee but afraid
to ask the teacher.

“D’you need a hand getting stuff out of the car?” I asked.

“No.” He held up the flight case that held his mic and harmonicas. “How
long do you think he’s going to be?”

“I don’t know. He said a few minutes, but I’ve no idea what that is in
real minutes.”

Clay sat on an amp, then got up and walked over to the soundproof door.
He opened it and the second door beyond it. He peered through the gloom. I
could hear the folk-metal band getting into their groove, and good luck to
them, but I was glad there would be a vacant studio between us and their
sawtooth D minors.

No sign of Jamie though.

It was like something was up with Clay. I was almost tempted to ask him
if he was okay. But what if he said no? That was why I didn’t ask personal
questions within the band. We played blues together, and we planned escape. We
memorised the names of one another’s significant others so we could be polite
if they showed up at a gig. Clay’s significant other, Sirelle was—again, in my
capacity, et cetera, et cetera—hot, but she was also Little Miss Disdain. Jake
did not have a significant other that wasn’t made of wood and didn’t have six
strings. Jamie had been a sore test of memory up until Louise, but he was
currently unattached. That was it.

Clay was making me nervous though. So:

“Are you going to set your mic up, Clay? I’ll help you set levels so
you’re all ready to go when Jamie gets here.”

No reason he couldn’t do it himself, but I was also music tech, so I
was allowed to ask.

“Uh, no.”

Then, he expelled a deep, doom-laden breath, and I knew this day, which
had started only medium crap, was going to end full-on shitstorm.

“I can’t wait for Jamie,” he decided. “Ah, guys
I’ve got an
announcement to make.”

Jake looked up but carried on playing irritating little shreds.

“Good news?” I asked, more in forlorn hope than expectation.

“Well, yes. Sort of. I’ve got a new job.”

That doesn’t happen a lot in Marden Combe. Let’s not piss on the parade
just yet.

“That’s good. Well done. So, what’s not to like about that?”

“It’s
in London.”

“Good pay, then, I guess. But I don’t fancy your commute.”

“Oh, it’s not Central London. It’s in Acton. But you’re right about the
commute. Apart from that, though, it’s a pretty good job. It’s a real step up
in my career.”

It was my turn to take a deep breath. “Okay. So why aren’t you dancing
for joy?”

“Well, it’s a big project, and they need to get started right away. So,
I’m starting next week. There’s no flexibility on that date. We’re up against
the wire.”

“Right. What happens when you go on holiday the week after? Are they
okay with that?”

“That’s just it, Kai. This is a huge project. It’s a fantastic
opportunity. I’ll be in right at the ground floor. I need to be there. I’ve
promised them I’ll be there.”

Ah. This is goodbye, then. Why can’t you just fucking say it?

“So what happens to the Clayton Paul Blues Band? What happens to the
tour? Köln, Aachen, Berlin? All those German punters waiting to see us two
weeks from now?”

Clay wouldn’t meet my eye.

“I can’t pass this up, Kai. It’s a dream opportunity for me.”

“And you can’t wait?”

“They won’t wait. I aced that interview, but there’s a bunch of
guys almost as good, ready to start tomorrow. White guys.”

“That shouldn’t matter. There are laws
”

“Shit, Kai. Don’t tell me you don’t know how discrimination
works. The manager liked me, stuck his neck out to make the offer. But if I
start pissing them about, making conditions
 It wouldn’t be discrimination,
no sir. But it would be ‘we need someone who can start
immediately’—that’s what they’d say.”

I nodded. I did know. White male privilege, Kai. “And the band?
Your band. Us. The Clayton Paul Blues Band that goes on tour in two weeks?”

“I don’t know.” It was a scream of desperation, and it made Jake stop
shredding. Something had gotten through to him.

“I don’t know,” Clay repeated, quieter. “It’s just a tour. It’s not the
fucking Beatles going to Hamburg to find their destiny.”

“No, it’s not. In the great scheme of history, it’s just a piece of
fun.”

“Well, then. You’ll get over it.”

Eyeroll. Do you know how crass that comes across, Clay? And a
deep breath.

“With the greatest of respect, Clay, fuck you. I do not plan to ‘get
over it’. I said it’s just a piece of fun, but that’s why it matters. Marden
Combe is a shithole of the first water. Nothing happens here. Nothing good has
ever come out of here. If we stay here all our lives, dying will be the best
thing that ever happens to us.

“So yes, it’s a piece of fun. And no, it’s way more than that. It’s the
hope of escape. It’s the dream in our waking lives that makes all the crap
worth enduring—the crummy job or the even crummier no-job.”

A father who was too distant. A step-mom who was too close. But I
didn’t say it. Nobody else’s business.

Clay shook his head. “I can’t be responsible for the crap in your
lives, Kai.” It was a whisper.

Jake turned back to his guitar and started adjusting his pedal board.
He wasn’t going to get involved if he could help it.

“Okay,” Clay continued, “you’d better cancel it—”

“Your band. Your tour. Haven’t you got the balls to cancel it
yourself?”

“I thought
you could find a stand-in for the tour. If you wanted it
that much.”

“A stand-in? And keep the band going afterwards, Clay? Is that what you
want? This band as your bolthole, waiting for you to return when the new job
settles down?”

I let that sink in, then asked him, “Can you commit to that?”

“Shit! I don’t know.”

“Don’t know? Or don’t want to tell us?”

“Put it on hold. We can put the band on hold, can’t we?”

“How long for?” I asked him.

“I don’t fucking know! I’ll be flying over to the US quite a bit. And
there’s a bunch of guys in Japan I’ll need to work with. Six months, maybe?”

And then it hit me. I knew why Clay couldn’t meet my eye.

“The Cherry Tree. You must have known about this last night, and you
didn’t say a fucking word. We’re already in the Last Chance Saloon. This is
Boot-fucking-Hill.”

I’d struck true. His mouth hung open, and the longer it stayed that
way, the more certain I was.

“Y-yes, Kai. I had the offer, but I didn’t know if I was going to take
it. Honest, guys. But I thought it over, slept on it, and knew I had to take my
chance.”

Well, it might be true, but my money was on Clay being too
chicken to stuff the band in front of Simon. It had been too long a pause,
while he crafted a damage-limitation lie.

“This’ll cost us our Saturday slot,” I said. “You know that, don’t you?
Simon knows we won’t find a new singer in time.”

“One of you could—”

“Simon’s already got a plan to fill our slot, else he wouldn’t have
given us ‘the talk’ last night. He’s a lovely guy, but he’s a businessman too.”

“He wouldn’t do that to you, Kai. You’re one of his golden
kids.”

Well, it was true, about being a ‘golden kid’ at least. Simon had taken
me under his wing when I first got the notion I might become Kai. But that
didn’t change a thing because Simon taught self-reliance and owning the
consequences even while he was still putting the pieces back together, with
himself as the prime example.

“You know better than that,” I said. “He owes the band nothing. He owes
me nothing. And neither of us would have it any other way.”

But I did owe Simon. Maybe what I owed him was enough notice to give
another band a clear shot at the residency.

Which was all very noble but not the issue at hand. Time to wrap
this shit up, Kai
.

“You said six months,” I began.

Six months. Six months without a band. I felt the dread rise up like a
wave, ready to pull me under. The Clayton Paul Blues Band was my life.

Had been my life.

Six months though. Six months was more than enough time to build a new
band. If I could pull the rest of the guys through.

Jake was in shock, biting his lip. His eyes darted about the room, to
me, to Clay, back to the fretboard, where spider fingers shaped chaotic chords.

“No good. Jake, you don’t want to be six months without a band, do
you?”

Jake put on his best rabbit-in-headlights gurn.

Bad move, Kai. This isn’t ‘pulling the guys through’.

But maybe I hadn’t screwed up. Maybe Clay sensed that the worst was
over.

“No, you’re right,” he said. “It’s not fair to ask you to wait. It’s
been a blast with you guys, but all good things come to an end.”

He held out his hand. “Kai? No hard feelings? Maybe play together
someday when all this is done?”

I shrugged. But
why burn bridges? If I’d had the chance, wouldn’t I
have done the same?

“Maybe.” I shook his hand. “Good luck with your escape from Alcatraz,
Thames Valley. And don’t cancel the tour. I want to think about that.”

He shook hands with Jake too. There was an awkward silence. Jake went
back to his guitar and began dabbing harmonics.

“Look, guys,” Clay said. “I’d like to stay and say goodbye to Jamie,
but I guess you’ll want to talk over what’s next, and you won’t want me around
for that. I’ve paid the Band Hut man, so the room’s yours till ten o’clock
anyway. Least I could do. Okay?”

The Band Hut man. Clay, his name’s Wally. He’s been the set-up guy
for two fucking years here, and you can’t be arsed to remember his name
.

Clay’s harmonicas and microphone were still in his flight case,
unopened. He picked the case up, squared his shoulders, and left the Band Hut,
leaving us to pick up the shards of a blues band.

Fuck.

*

Jamie wasn’t best pleased when he arrived a few minutes later.

“No Clay? I thought I saw him driving past as I got off the bus. What
happened?”

Jake let me do the explaining. When I’d finished, Jamie’s comment was
brief.

“Stupid bugger.”

Huh? I expected more support from my brother than that. Jamie saw my
worried frown.

“Easy, Kai. I didn’t mean you. You were right to force the issue. He
wants us to give him a free pass back into the band if it all goes tits-up. No
dice. Shame about the tour—”

“Yeah. Shame Clay’s going to miss it.”

Jamie started to say something, but I rode right over him.

“I’ve been thinking about it, guys. We’ve put a lot of work into
rehearsing for this tour, and I don’t want it to go to waste. It’s a vital part
of the Plan.”

The Plan, which was to practise like crazy and hone the set with a
tour—yes, like the Beatles, but in less time. We had Deller Studio A booked in
Oxford for our return, ready to record a sizzling demo to impress the A&R
men in London. Get a record deal. Spend the rest of our lives playing music and
counting money. And spend it somewhere that was not Marden Combe.

Meanwhile, Jamie was being practical. “But we’ve got no singer, no van,
and no driver
”

“Hey, we can fix that stuff. Advertise for a singer. Find one who can
drive a van. Hire a van.”

“That takes time, Kai.”

“We’ve got two weeks. One of us could sing.”

“Not like Clay.”

Jake perked up. Shit! The slumbering giant awakes


“Yeah. What Kai said. One of us could sing.”

But not you, Jake. Please, not you. Behind Jake, Jamie rolled his eyes. One thing we
agreed on.

“There’ll be a lot of admin too,” said Jamie.

“I guess that’s mostly me, then,” I replied. “You guys have got day
jobs.”

Jamie nodded. “Jake—anything else on your mind?”

“Yeah. Can we play now, bossman?”

“Yeah. I think we need to.”

I fussed around with the drum kit a bit for the sake of something to
do. Jamie plugged his bass into the studio’s amp and twiddled a few knobs until
it sounded okay.

No microphone. Clay had taken his away with him. So I begged Wally, the
front desk guy, to find us a decent mic.

And, of course, with budget rehearsal studios, nothing’s free;
everything’s an extra. Wally played hardman with me. He took the tack that,
yes, Clay had paid, but that didn’t include unlimited mics. He pointed to the
price list on the wall.

“Ten quid, Wally? You cannot be serious. Show me something that’s worth
that much.”

So, he reached into a drawer and pulled out an offering. “It’s a Shure.
Top-line mic.”

I shook my head. “It’s a fucking museum piece. Look—the windshield’s
dented. Somebody’s dropped this, hard. And the lead’s missing a grub screw. You
can’t charge ten quid for this shit.”

He opened his mouth to reply.

I wagged a finger at him. “Here’s five quid and a five-star review for
your customer service. Promise. Okay?”

“Done.”

I set up the mic—it crackled, and I wondered whether I’d sold my review
too cheap. We argued about who’d go first, and Jake won.

Live, we always set up a special mic for Jake to do backing vocals. I
mixed it up, prominent in the stage monitors, but it didn’t go anywhere near
the main bus. We endured it so the audience didn’t have to.

That trick wasn’t going to work in the studio though. We had to be
fair; we had to let him try. Jake gave it his all.

“‘Serves You Right to Suffer’, guys,” he said, grinning and bizarrely
aware of the irony of his audition choice. “John Lee Hooker.”

Indeed, a prophetic choice. Jamie and I set up a slow blues pattern,
and Jake dived in on guitar, catching the groove. He took the guitar down to
nothing and growled the opening lyric. Then he searched for a pitch, found a
note he liked and hung on to it, while Jamie struggled on bass to find the key
he’d chosen. Then Jake played a riff in the original key, clashing horribly
with Jamie’s bass. Jake glared at Jamie, who reverted to the original key.

Jake choked the guitar back again. His voice found another note he
liked. This time, Jamie stuck to the original key and earned another black look
from Jake. It went on like that a long time, back and forth between random
keys, and whatever Jamie did was wrong. After a couple of verses, Jamie
launched into an unmistakable this-IS-the-end-of-the-song fretboard run before
Jake had a chance to start a new verse.

Jake turned to me. I guessed Jamie was in all kinds of bad books for
pissing about with the bass line.

“How was that?” he asked, puppy-dog eager to start his new singing
career.

“That was
astonishing, Jake.”

It was all I could think of to say. It was even true. Technically
‘astonishing’ could mean bad as well as good. But as I saw a puppy-dog joy fill
his eyes, I knew I’d said the wrong thing. The unvarnished truth would hurt him
deeply.

Jamie saved me. “What happened to the guitar, Jake? I don’t think I
caught much guitar.”

“That? No. I guess it was a bit sparse.”

“We do need your guitar. Very much.”

“I’m not sure I could do both. I could learn.”

I jumped in. “Let’s make it our plan B.” By which I meant our plan Z.
“Your guitar is too important to our sound. Jamie? Did you want to try?”

Jamie liked to bounce about on stage, so I couldn’t see how that was
going to work, live. Despite that, he wanted to try out, so we ran through a
couple of numbers. He wasn’t bad—we already knew his pitch and timbre were good
enough for backing vocals—but he wasn’t happy.

“You don’t have to tell me, guys. That was shit. I can’t syncopate
against the bass line. I can’t put any feeling behind it. Not the way Clay
could. Your turn, Kai.”

So I pulled the mic stand around to the side of the kit, set it up so
it didn’t get in the way of the hi-hat, and we gave it a go. I picked ‘I Come
from the Blues’, which was one of Clay’s compositions. It had fallen out of the
set sometime in the last six months, but I loved Clay’s soft, jazzy
butterscotch vocals on it. If it had been up to me, it would still be in the
set, but Clay had said he wanted to move on.

Where did I come from? I come from the blues.

Where am I going? I’m going to lose.

Where is my future? I’m sure I have none.

Where is my hope? My hope is all gone.

I’ve always sung along—off-mic and under my breath—so I didn’t have any
trouble fitting the words in the right places. And I’ve got decent pitch and
rhythm. So I think I did all right.

Now, Jamie wouldn’t meet my eye.

“What?” I demanded. “What was wrong with that?”

He mumbled something.

“I can’t hear you, bro. What did he say, Jake?”

Jake looked away. He didn’t want to get involved in any squall between
me and my brother. Besides, he’d used up all his words for the day.

“I’m not sure how to put this, Kai. You’ve got a good voice. It’s,
well
not very, well, rock’n’roll. No
grit. Too pure. Sorry.”

“I see.”

“Look, we’ll ask around our friends. Social media. There’s got to be
something online.”

I didn’t say anything. I was thinking lots though. About how I’d
discovered that this was something I really wanted to do. And could do. All
that bullshit about ‘too pure’—no, my voice was good. Damn you, Jamie. I will
sing. In this band, if possible. If not


The rest of the practice was conducted with icy politeness. We mostly
played instrumentals. Jamie sang the few bits where we absolutely needed the
vocal cues. I sat behind the kit pretending to be okay.

It was crap.

 

William lives in a small Buckinghamshire village in England.
By night he writes speculative, historical, crime and other fiction. His latest
novel – TEARDOWN – is published by NineStar Press and is widely available in
eBook and paperback formats. Previously, his debut novel, EXPIRATION DAY, was
published by Tor Teen in 2014 and won the 2015 Hal Clement Award for better
than half-decent science in a YA novel – the citation actually says
“Excellence in Children’s Science Fiction Literature”. His short
fiction has also appeared in DreamForge, Metastellar, Abyss & Apex and
other excellent ‘zines. By day he writes software and in the twilight he sings
tenor, plays guitar and writes songs.

 

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In a semi-abandoned haveli deep in Rajasthan, a woman on a
social work project finds herself drawn into an enigmatic bond with a man — and
into the secrets the ancient walls have kept for generations, discovering her
own identity along the way.

The Desert Awakening

by Gitanjali Bhagia

Genre: Mystery, Romantic Thriller

In a semi-abandoned haveli deep in Rajasthan, the desert
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walls.

When Soma travels from her life in Mumbai back to the land
of her ancestors, she isn’t looking for love — she’s looking for herself. But
the haveli has other plans. Drawn into an enigmatic bond with a man as guarded
as the house itself, she finds that every question she asks about him leads
back to a secret the ancient walls have kept for generations. As the line
between attraction and danger blurs, and the past refuses to stay buried, Soma
must decide how far she’s willing to go — through Mumbai’s crowded streets and
Rajasthan’s sun-baked silence — to uncover a truth that could unravel
everything she thought she knew about her family, and herself.

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THE DESERT AWAKENING is a slow-burn thriller-mystery-romance about identity,
inheritance, and the secrets that outlive the people who kept them — written by
a debut author whose own grandmother’s stories from Rajasthan inspired the
novel.

 

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from Chapter 1

    The place was picturesque from a distance. Built in the 19th century, the sandstone facade remained untouched allowing it to surrender its grandeur at dusk. Two domed structures at each end of the south side guarded the balconies of the main chambers. The original Indo-Islamic architecture was preserved from the north entrance with its intricate jaal stone gate, arched windows, and floral reliefs flanking the main wooden doors. The two-door access was a towering replica of the original fort-like entryway with a series of symmetrical melon-sized brass knobs accenting the simple wooden frame. Concrete and cement managed to invade the interior of the house after generations of reconstruction. Centrally, a courtyard outlined by a veranda echoed with voices of the past. A step down from the veranda, a garden once flourished intermingling jasmine and rose essence. Now it was diminished to soft desert sand with a few staggered terracotta planters making a feeble attempt to instill life into the semi-abandoned haveli.
Malti sat on the edge of the veranda patiently with her bare cracked feet immersed in the cool sand. She had aged with the house, transforming her role from an ayah to general caretaker, now bearing the burden of holding the immense gate key. The sole resident of a former bustling household, she sat motionless. Adorned with a turmeric-stained crumpled cotton flowing skirt and tattered brown shawl, she waited for his arrival. Without any sign of anticipation, she rested on the mosaic tile of the veranda staring blankly at the wall in front of her. He mentioned that he would return at the end of the monsoon. It had been 2 days since the last rain.
Malti looked away from the paan-stained wall and into her past — 26 years ago. She clearly heard him shouting, “Malti-ma! Malti!” He came running straight through the garden toward the kitchen where she was supervising the other maidservants Meera and Radha in sifting lentils and churning fresh cream for the evening meal. “I got first prize in 2 subjects…math and painting!” Avi pulled the bronze Aladdin lamp trophy with its white marble base out of his overflowing backpack. As a fourth-grade student now, he felt bigger than ever. Malti was expressionless as she looked at his mark sheet. “Hmm. I see that you can still do better.” Malti could only understand the numbers on his sheets as she had barely completed elementary school and could only read in Hindi. All his scores were pristine, but he was just shy of honors in his moral science class — a course that he would question throughout life. Avi was far from phased by her lack of enthusiasm because he knew he would be rewarded in due time with homemade kulfi ice cream swimming in rose syrup. Before she could tell him to change out of his uniform, he raced down the long corridor and slammed the door to his room demanding the attention of his two older cousins.
Malti was jolted by the clanging sound of the wrought iron gate. She knew he had arrived. The iron gates creaked open almost by themselves — welcoming Avi to the ghosts of his past. As much as he tried to ignore the memories of his childhood in the village of Khuri, they kept surfacing and the smell of the damp sand only heightened the queasiness from nostalgia.
Avi had spent the last 14 years in the States building a separate life. He tried to replace the feelings associated with his native land with new strides of the immigrant dream. It was not bitterness or resentment that caused him to suppress his childhood links
 but a true longing for a past that could never be reproduced. The buzz of servants and his cousins and uninvited neighbors dropping in for a cup of tea amidst the morning calls of peacocks on the terrace, the vegetable seller repeating his call for the day, cows and water buffalos calling out to their herd
 All of this tumultuous hubbub actually brought peace to his inner being. He was infused with a sense of belonging only to be shadowed by the desire to seek a sense of purpose. Avi was the first in his family to venture abroad; he thought this would be the pinnacle of perfection. Lost in the glamour of this illusion, he discovered nothing but the true meaning of loneliness. The urban landscape of his studio apartment in DC was no sanctuary. Residents in his buildings were like drones programmed to hover back and forth from work to home and home to work with absolutely no break in routine. Colleagues at work would perhaps start a shallow conversation, meet up for the happy hour ritual but always leave with the same cold affection. He felt a disconnect from everyone
 including his wife, Anna.

Gitanjali Bhagia is a first-generation Indian American. She
is not just a dedicated ophthalmologist practicing in Northern Virginia but a
storyteller woven from the threads of her own diverse heritage. She finds
inspiration in the rich tapestry of her ancestry, especially in the legacy of
her beloved grandmother, Vimla Bhagia, whose tales from her family’s home in
Rajasthan, India, ignited her imagination from a young age.

Born in Pennsylvania and raised in North Carolina, Gitanjali’s cultural roots
became the fertile soil from which her passion for writing blossomed. Her
frequent visits to Rajasthan not only connected her to her familial history but
also stirred a deep appreciation for the mystique and allure of the Indian
subcontinent.

With her enchantment of the tales whispered by the sands of Rajasthan,
Gitanjali weaves narratives that transport readers to captivating worlds. Her
writing carries the essence of her cross-cultural experiences, inviting readers
to explore the intricate nuances of identity, heritage, and the human
connection.

 

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#blogtour Olympian Awakenings Trilogy by C.B. Samet

 

Cursed as children.

Empowered as adults.

Now, they’ve been summoned to stop a force older than the
gods themselves.

Stone Hearts

Olympian Awakenings Trilogy Book 1

by CB Samet

Genre: Greek Mythology Urban Fantasy Romance

Madison was cursed to
destroy with a glance—until a prophecy calls her to fight beside the one man
who sees through her walls
 and into her heart.

Cursed to turn the living to stone, Madison has spent her
life avoiding others—until a prophecy drags her to Greece to join a team of
strangers to help stop an ancient evil. Among them, she meets Rex, a
battle-scarred archaeologist with the power to heal and secrets of his own.

Together, they must survive deadly skirmishes, outwit
mythical creatures, and recover the Armor of Achilles from the heart of
Daedalus’ labyrinth.

The deeper they go, the more the maze twists not just the
path, but their minds.

Failure isn’t an option. Succeeding might cost them
everything.

Magic. Monsters. A
love forged in fire. The battle is only beginning.

 

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Winds of Destiny

Olympian Awakenings Book 2

When a titan’s power
surges, mortals pay the price—and the Olympians must answer the call.

Layla, Tyler, and the other Olympians are thrust on a
perilous quest across the Mediterranean and into the sunken heart of Atlantis
to reclaim Poseidon’s trident. Their sea voyage is fraught with danger with
deadly monsters and diabolical magic at every turn. Only by learning to
trust—and love—each other can they hope to survive.

Layla’s storm powers are tied to her heart, and to master
them, she must first confront the emotions she’s spent years guarding. Tyler, a
shapeshifter whose might can rival the fiercest beasts, may be the key to her
control—but breaking through the walls around her heart won’t be easy. Their
past mistakes still linger, and some wounds run too deep for even the strongest
powers to heal.

Adventure, danger, and passion collide in this electrifying
continuation of the Olympian Awakens series.

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Flame and Shadow

Olympian Awakenings Book 3

A titan is rising.
And this time, the world may not
survive.

Fire-wielder Zoey has spent her life afraid of her own
power. Ancient soldier Alexios has spent centuries believing he was nothing
more than a weapon. Together, they’ve survived monsters, gods, and impossible
quests—but nothing prepares them for Kronos’s final move.

As fractures tear open between worlds, monsters pour into
the mortal realm and the boundary between life and death begins to collapse.
When a desperate sacrifice strands Zoey in the Underworld itself, ancient
warrior Alexios must defy gods, fate, and death to bring her home—before she
loses her memories
 and herself.

The final battle will demand everything from all six
champions who have fought side by side: fire and storm, stone and steel,
courage, sacrifice, and unbreakable trust.

Because defeating a Titan will take more than power.

It will take a family forged in battle—and two souls willing
to burn for each other and the world they refuse to lose.

The explosive
conclusion to the Olympian Awakenings trilogy delivers epic Greek mythology,
found family, and a sweeping romantic finale where love and legend collide.

 

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Olympian Awakenings Prequel

When fire meets storm, destiny ignites.

Zoey has always felt the burn of something more beneath her
skin—an untamed fire that refuses to be extinguished. After years of hiding her
power, she’s finally found belonging and a chance to be normal
 as a stunt
double on a Hollywood set.

Layla is the picture of grace and fame, a star with a global
following. But behind the camera, she’s hiding a dangerous secret: she can
control the weather.

When a monstrous creature straight from myth attacks during
filming, Zoey and Layla are forced to reveal their powers—and discover they’re
not alone. Chosen by ancient forces, bound by a forgotten legacy, the two women
must join forces to face a truth that will shatter everything they thought they
knew.

Because the world is on the brink of chaos.
And this is only the beginning.

 

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Christina is a four-time award winning author in thriller,
romantic suspense, and fantasy. She is a mother of two energetic boys. She
is a lover of suspense, adventure, and happy endings. She writes action and
adventure in fantasy, thrillers, and romantic suspense genres. Her novels have
empowered women overcoming powerful obstacles and the strong men who support
them.

Favorite quote, ‘She needed a hero. So she became
one.’ –Robin Reed

#blogtour The Au Pair’s Deception by C.J. Covino

 

She was looking for a fresh start,

but some families hide
dark truths behind closed doors.

The Au Pair’s
Deception

by C.J. Covino

Genre: Psychological Domestic Suspense, Crime Thriller


Claire Sinclair knows what it means to survive.

After a childhood shaped by trauma, she’s built a life
rooted in stability—a thriving career, a home filled with love, and a devoted
husband everyone envies.

But when Bella arrives as an au pair, the carefully
constructed world Claire depends on begins to unravel.

At first, it’s subtle. A shift in tone. A look held too
long. A moment that feels wrong—but not wrong enough.

Until it is.

As Grant’s behavior escalates, Claire begins to question
herself—her instincts, her memories, the quiet unease she can’t quite explain.
For the sake of her daughter, she holds on
even as something inside her starts
to fracture.

But Bella sees what Claire can’t. She recognizes the signs.
The patterns. The danger.

Because she’s lived it before.

As the tension inside the house builds toward something
neither woman can ignore, the line between endurance and survival begins to
blur—and the choice Claire makes next could cost her everything.

A layered
psychological thriller told through dual perspectives, The Au Pair’s
Deception
explores what happens when two women—both shaped by their
pasts—are forced to confront the same danger from different sides. Combining
escalating suspense with emotional depth, it’s a character-driven story of
survival, resilience, and the cost of breaking free.

Trigger Warning: This
book contains depictions of domestic abuse and violence which may be triggering
to some readers. Please read with caution.

 

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Claire
stepped through the front door of her colonial home, greeted by the scent of
tomato sauce drifting from the kitchen. The comfort was exactly what she needed
after the heavy therapy session with Evelyn. 
 

“Clark
is here,” Grant called from the living room, his voice cheerful.   

Claire
froze for a moment, her stomach churning at the mention of his name. Something
about her husband’s friend had always set her instincts on edge.  

She
recalled Evelyn’s words about instincts. She shouldn’t ignore them.   

“Great,”
she muttered under her breath.   

Forcing
a smile, she made her way through the foyer to the living room, where she found
Grant and Clark lounging on the couch. Their laughter rang out like a haunting
melody, heightening her discomfort. Clark leaned back, his casual confidence
radiating, his gestures animated. The way he threw his head back and guffawed
made her nauseated.   

“Hey,
Claire!” Grant said. “You’re just in time. Clark was telling me about this wild
trip he took last year.”   

Clark
flashed her a disarming smile. “A little ski adventure in Canada—nothing like
ungroomed black-diamond runs for an adrenaline rush, right?” He gazed at Claire
with a menacing, glassy gleam.   

“Sounds

interesting,” she replied, forcing the words out as tightness gathered in her
chest. Her focus shifted to Grant, hoping for a flicker of recognition that she
was unhappy to have Clark there, but he was leaning back with an amused smile
on his lips.  

“Bella
made an Argentine dish, by the way,” Grant added, his tone light and
carefree.   

“I’m
starving.” Clark leered, his gaze lingering on her longer than necessary,
making her blood run cold. “I bet it’s delicious. I’ve heard Bella has a knack
for cooking.”   

“Yes,
she does,” Claire said, trying to mask her annoyance. It was already taking all
her willpower to keep from asking why he’d come over.    

 

 

Clark
seemed too comfortable, too at home in spaces that were intimate for her. Her
mind raced with memories of their wedding day and of Grant’s possessive
demeanor when Clark had made a joke that struck too close to home.   

“I
was just telling Grant how lucky he is to have a woman who spends her days
saving lives,” Clark continued, leaning forward as if drawing her into his web.
“It must be tough to manage everything, but you do it so well.”   

Claire
clenched her jaw. “It’s part of the job.” 
 

“Of
course,” Clark replied, his tone dripping with insincerity. “But you know, it’s
important to take time for yourself, too. I bet you could use a break.” 

“I’m
fine.” Her voice was sharper than she’d meant. She could feel them both staring
at her, their expressions curious.

She
wanted nothing more than to retreat from the room. Instead, she plastered on a
smile and changed the subject. “Where are Bella and Olivia?”

“Don’t
you remember, dear?” Grant’s voice held a hint of irritation. “Olivia’s having
dinner at Rose’s house with Maya. Bella dropped her off.”

“Yes,
of course. Well, if you gentlemen will excuse me, I’m going to change for
dinner.”  

“Don’t
be gone too long, Claire,” Grant warned, his features tightening with
disapproval.   

She
walked away, unable to shake the feeling that Clark was a dark presence in her
home.  

Once
upstairs, she collapsed onto her bed. Her head was pounding. She squeezed her
eyes shut, trying to quell the pain. She hadn’t had a migraine in several
months, but the signs were unmistakable—sensitivity to light and sound, an aura
of flashing lights. Her body prickled with pins and needles.   

She
struggled to sit up, pulled open the drawer in her nightstand, and retrieved a
bottle of medication. It would make her sleepy, but the alternative was
dizziness, chills, and vomiting, which were worse.   

Shuffling
to the bathroom, she filled a cup with water and swallowed the pill. She caught
a glimpse of herself in the mirror. Deep, dark circles framed her eyes. Her
skin was pale, her lips tinged blue. She dragged herself back to bed, her knees
weak. If she could rest for even a few minutes, maybe she’d make it through
dinner.   

She
awoke to Grant shaking her. He spoke through clenched teeth, keeping his voice
low. “I told you not to be gone too long. You’ve been up here for over an hour.
Everyone’s waiting. Bella’s ready to serve dinner. Not only is this rude to
Clark, but it’s also disrespectful to me.” 
 

Despite
the medication’s sedating effect, his words made her face flush with anger.

“I
had a migraine. I had to take medicine. I didn’t have a choice. You know
how bad these headaches can be.”   

He
sneered. “How convenient. You just happen to get a migraine when we have
company. And the pills—you know they make you so sleepy you can’t function. Did
you take them so you’d have an excuse not to come down?”   

“No.”
She tried to raise her head, but fatigue left her drained and foggy. “I
wouldn’t do that, Grant.”    

He
grabbed her by the shoulders, pulling her to a standing position, and shook
her. “You will get dressed, and you will come down. Now.”   

“I
can’t. I’m sorry.”   

His
reaction was sudden. Yet time stretched thin, almost translucent. Her body
tensed before her mind could process what was happening. Then came the crack of
his palm against her cheek, echoing in the bedroom, followed by his cold
command: “Snap out of this, Claire.” Heat radiated across her face from the
point of impact.   

She
staggered back, pressing a hand to her cheek. They faced each other in frozen
silence, tethered by a single thread of recognition that the line had been
crossed. Tears blurred her vision. Her mind rejected the harsh reality,
insisting that the burning imprint of his fingers wasn’t real.   

He
released her and stomped across the room to retrieve jeans and a blouse from
the closet, then threw them onto the bed. 
 

“Get
dressed,” he ordered.   

She
moved through a haze of disbelief, her motions mechanical, while he stood
watching with his arms crossed.   

“Now
go wash your face.” He followed her into the bathroom and turned the faucet to
cold water. “Do it.”   

She
bent forward, cupping her hands beneath the water and splashing her face. She
caught a glimpse of her reflection. A red handprint was stamped on one cheek.
“I can’t go down like this. Everyone will notice.”   

He
reached for her foundation. “Put this on.” 
 

She
applied a thick layer, softening the mark, but the early signs of a bruise were
still evident.   

He
took her hand, leading her down the stairs. “Smile,” he ordered under his
breath.   

Whether
it was the numbing effect of the medicine, the shock of the violence, or pure
fear, she managed to force a smile. That moment—his hand, her cheek, the
sting—had left an indelible mark, shattering her life around her.

 

 

By day, C.J. Covino is an online fitness coach helping
people live healthier lives. By night, she channels her devious side into
writing psychological suspense, starting with her debut novel, The Au Pair’s
Deception: When Love Turns to Lies. She resides in sunny Albuquerque with her
husband of 40 years, three grown kids who safely flew the coop, and a literal
zoo consisting of three dogs, a parrot, and a cat. She is powered almost
entirely by coffee, a passion for travel, and the thrill of a good plot twist.
Learn more at cjcovino.com and follow her writing journey on TikTok
@cjcovinoauthor.

#blogtour  Dark Night of the Soul by Michelle Miles

 

Love made him
dangerous.

Devotion will make him unstoppable.

Dark Night of the
Soul

War of the Brotherhood Book 1

by Michelle Miles

Genre: Dark Paranormal Romance

Love made him
dangerous. Devotion will make him unstoppable.

For centuries, Kincade survived by control.

Forged by the Brotherhood, he learned to bury his humanity, suppress his
instincts, and become exactly what they needed him to be—a weapon. Darkness was
safer than feeling. Obedience was survival.

Then she changed everything.

When the woman he loves is taken, restraint shatters. The careful balance he’s
fought to maintain slips—and the Brotherhood sees their opening. They want the
monster he used to be. The weapon they never quite lost.

To save her, he may have to become exactly that.

As ancient secrets rise and factions fracture, the line between protector and
destroyer begins to blur. Every step closer to her pulls him deeper into the
war he tried to escape—and toward the darkness he swore would never rule him
again.

Because this time, love isn’t his weakness. It’s his point of no return.

Dark Night of the Soul is a dark
paranormal romance set within the War of the Brotherhood
—a high-stakes spin-off arc in the Dream
Walker universe. You do not need to read the previous Dream Walker books to
enjoy DARK NIGHT OF THE SOUL. This spinoff is designed to stand on its own.

 

Perfect for readers who love:

* Dark, emotionally intense paranormal romance

* Immortal antiheroes and devotion-driven stakes

* Secret orders, hidden wars, and found family

* Love that becomes defiance

 

Content Note: This book contains dark themes and intense
scenes, including violence, injury and blood, torture / forced restraint,
psychological trauma, and situations involving coercion / control. It also
includes threats to a loved one. Reader discretion is advised.

 

“Dark Night of the Soul by Michelle Miles is
everything dark paranormal romance should be—intense, emotional, and completely
consuming. I devoured it.”

— Michelle M. Pillow, NYT Bestselling Author

 

Available in eBook, paperback, and audio! 

 

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MICHELLE MILES believes in fairy tales, true love, and a
little bit of magic in every story. She writes fantasy, paranormal, and young
adult books packed with adventure, action, and swoon-worthy romance—because
what’s a story without a bit of danger and a whole lot of heart? From angels
and demons to dragons, elves, and time travelers, her books are filled with
epic quests, fierce heroines, and the kind of heroes worth falling for.

When she’s not crafting new adventures, she brings stories
to life as a narrator and hosts Miles Beyond the Page, a podcast where she
chats with authors about their writing journeys. A Texas girl through and
through, she loves getting lost in a good book, binge-watching movies, hiking
the trails, and sipping a glass of wine. Come hang out with her on Facebook,
Instagram, Pinterest, and more!

 

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#blogtour When Harry met Charlie by Donna Costa

 

Can two men who clash over everything ever agree on love?

When Harry Met
Charlie

by Donna Costa

Genre: MM Romantic Comedy

Harry is a number-cruncher. Charlie is a people-person. One
is bubbly and optimistic, the other serious and pessimistic. With an endless
stream of verbal sparring and heated debates filling the car on their road trip
from Vancouver to Toronto, they arrive at the conclusion they are complete
opposites and go their separate ways.

When they meet years later – older, wiser, and love-worn –
will their sparring become a prelude to romance? An exciting turn on? Will they
be there for each other when it’s needed most?

Boys’ Love + Nora Ephron Fan Fiction = When Harry Met
Charlie

 

“Fun, funny and wonderfully delightful! Reminds you of
experiencing your first crush – I couldn’t turn the pages fast enough!” –
Leeanne Whitehouse, Pure Country Morning Host

 

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Donna Costa draws on her love of romance, both novels and
movies, plus her years in the aviation industry for When Harry Met Charlie. She
writes in a variety of genres including YA, memoir, romance, and historical
fiction. She lives in London, Ontario.

 

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